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Laying on children on the altar and letting the Father's will be done isn't always easy.

Abraham Versus Sarah

In Genesis 22, we are taught the story of Abraham’s TRUE faith. No, not the leaving of his family and his father’s country. Not the being a sojourner in a land called his, instead of being able to set up a home. All that required true faith that the Father would provide, for sure.
However, let’s be honest. How easy would it be to leave your home and know the Father would provide for you? For us, in this present day, it might look something like this:

  • Sell your large home
  • Buy a smaller home, maybe a bit closer to work, school, or family
  • Have a smaller payment or no debt at all
  • Praise the Father for providing

That sounds pretty easy, right? And I know that Abraham’s faith was a strong faith in the Father. When Yah told Abraham that he and his wife Sarah would have a son in their old age, Abraham knew it would happen. Didn’t know how, he just knew it would.

Ah, that Sarah. She longed for this son for so long. Her heart must have ached to hold a baby of her own. Hearing that a son would be born to a woman well past child bearing years would have made me laugh out loud, too! Doubt would have easily crept in, and I would question it as well.

When the baby finally DID come, did that make Sarah’s faith stronger in the Father? Maybe. We really aren’t told much about Sarah’s faith and her relationship with Yahweh. So, I imagine myself in that position. I’ve prayed about a child for years and years, when the time finally comes for me in my old age I am exuberant. I can see her now, bouncing that baby on her leg, nursing that child with love and care. Watching with joy in her old eyes as he toddles on his first steps. Ears that ring with the sound of his first words.

Believing this child was the promised one, and nothing would ever harm or hurt him.

All that would change for Sarah. When the Father told Abraham to take Issac up to the mountain and offer a sacrifice, there is nothing that suggests Abraham consulted Sarah about the decision. Nothing that suggests that Abraham doubted for one moment that the Father spoke to him and told him to do it. Abraham just knew that the Father would take care of things, that the promise he gave to make his seed into a great nation would not be a lie. Whatever the Father promised is what would happen. Even if that meant Issac would be raised from the dead. Abraham believed.

Did Sarah know this to be true? After reading the story of Abraham taking Issac up, putting him on the altar, raising the knife, being stopped and blessed, what more do we read of Sarah?

The next time she is mentioned in Genesis 23, Sarah dies.

Did she hear what Abraham was going to do with her only son, the longed for child, and die of a broken heart? That seems likely. What did Abraham know that she didn’t?

As a mother of three wonderful teenage children, I can feel Sarah’s pain. The idea that something would happen to harm or kill my child would grieve me to the core as well. It would pain me more to see THEM hurting than to see ME hurting. I know that most mothers can testify to that as well. We would give our right arm, our eyes, our very lives to protect and keep them. That’s a good thing, truly.

Yet, we are to lay our children on the altar as well. Not literally kill them as a sacrifice, but to offer them up to the Father. To pray that HIS plan will be worked out in their lives. When our children go astray, it’s painful to see. Yet, the Father already knows their path and what it will take to pull them back. To stop praying for “protection” but to pray that the Father will reach them, no matter what.

And yes, that is painful to see. Painful to watch your child deal with pain. But, if that is what it takes to have them repent and turn to the Father, then that is what we need to allow to happen. We need to “get out of the Father’s way” and allow them to be placed on the altar. Allow the Father to cut their hearts, and remove the stony parts. Yes, it will hurt them. Yes, our hearts will hurt watching it.

But, the promised blessing is worth the pain. The promise of “Train a child in the way they should go, and when he is old, he WILL NOT DEPART.” (Proverbs 22:6). And for all those who are struggling with a wayward child, this promise may be all you have to cling to. It is for me right now. Watching our older teen son struggle with his faith, doubt it, question it, and even walk away from it is heartbreaking. Laying him on the altar and allowing the Father to do His will isn’t easy either. As a mother, I want to protect my child from danger, harm, or any pain.

Like Sarah, a part of me feels dead when my child is hurting. To have the faith of Abraham and KNOW that the Father will take care of the child is what we need to have. We need to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that the Father WILL be true to His word, always.


How easy it is to fall prey to sin! What can we learn from David?

Falling To Sin

This morning, as we were reading in 2 Samuel, it started out as “just a story”. It’s a good story, learning more of David who was often referred to as a “man after Yahweh’s heart”. He is someone I love to read about, to be honest. David was powerful, righteous and had a way with words that were just beautiful. Can you just hear David playing the lyre or harp, singing his praises to Yahweh?

It’s easy to do when you are at the top, right?

Let’s remember that David wasn’t always righteous…like that time he submitted to his earthly, fleshly desires? Hmmmm…it started with pornography, really. Ancient times type of porno.

And it came to pass in an eveningtide, that David arose from off his bed, and walked upon the roof of the king’s house: and from the roof he saw a woman washing herself; and the woman was very beautiful to look upon. (2 Sam 11:2 KJV)

Can you just think for a moment just how “creepy” it was for David to WATCH Bathsheba take a bath? Peeping Tom, much, David? But, that was the draw of sexual desire. Like I said, it was an ancient form of pornography.

And, that sin of lusting after Bathsheba in his heart, coveting Uriah’s wife, led David to do much worse. Murder, lying, adultery…

It’s at this time we need to think back on the Torah. I like to call the 10 Commandments the “cliff’s notes to Torah”. It’s a great way of seeing the basics of following Yahweh. In those 10 commandments, it’s pretty specific that we aren’t to covet our neighbor’s stuff. Like his house, his belongings, his car, his WIFE. (see Exodus 20:7) Why? Well, that desire to have what our neighbor has can lead us to do some pretty crazy stuff.

Back to David and Bathsheeba. David wanted this woman so bad, that he had his messenger to and get her to bring her to David’s bed. One has to wonder what Bathsheeba thought of this at the time. Was she a willing party to sleeping with David, thus committing adultery? Did David give her gifts, or get her drunk, or make promises to prosper her if she slept with him? Did David force himself on her? No, the Bible leaves that part out, but I still wonder about HER side of the story.

So, now, David gets Bathsheeba pregnant.(2 Sam 11: 5) She obviously knew it was David’s, since her own husband was out fighting the war. What does our hero do? He tries to get Uriah to sleep with his wife, making it look like the child was his own. As if the man couldn’t count to 9. However, Uriah was much more righteous than David was at this time. Uriah refused to have sex with his wife, or take the night off, so to speak, when the men he was fighting with couldn’t do the same. (2 Sam 11:11)

That didn’t work, so David had Uriah sent to the front of the battle. He was to be placed strategically, so that the others fighting with him would leave him alone, and Uriah would be killed. Yo’ab, the leader of David’s army apparently was upset at being commanded to do this, because David’s messenger sent these words to him:

Then David said unto the messenger, Thus shalt thou say unto Joab, Let not this thing displease thee, for the sword devoureth one as well as another: make thy battle more strong against the city, and overthrow it: and encourage thou him. (2 Sam 11:25 KJV)

Basically, David was saying to Yo’ab…”Hey, it’s all good. Men die in battle and one is just as good as another. No biggie, not your fault. These things happen.”.

THEN, after her days of mourning for Uriah, David takes Bathsheeba into his house and takes her as a wife. Their son was born, probably not too long after. Did all the house of David know that the child was HIS, or did they think he was just a great guy, taking a women who was pregnant with another man’s child? Again, not important details, but I wonder…

Yeah, what David did was EVIL. In 27 verses, David went from doing the will of Yahweh, to doing what was evil in Yahweh’s eyes. It took less than a year for him to do this. What would have happened if David had NOT fallen to that original watching of Bathsheeba bathing? Would he have lusted after her, slept with her, impregnated her? If David had turned from watching this woman on the rooftop, would he have been drawn to commit murder?

Oh, how easy it is for us to fall victim to sin!! One sin can easily lead to another, then another, then another. Before you know it, our lives are torn apart. Pornography, lusting after another, can be so dangerous. It can tear a kingdom apart.

Who are the real victims of this story? Well, Bathsheeba for one. She was the one who was innocently bathing on the rooftop. Uriah was the husband who was cheated on and murdered. The child Bathsheeba bore to David died. And yes, even David. He became a victim of sin. Once he got on that sin train, it was hard to stop.

But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it.” (Genesis 4:7 KJV)

And so it is with all of us. We must learn to run from sin, run hard and fast away from it. What is sin? Sin is transgression of the law. (1 John 3:4) In order to keep from sinning, we MUST follow Yahweh’s laws, or Torah. That was given to us, NOT for salvation, but BECAUSE of our salvation. The Torah is how we know HOW to love Yahweh with all our hearts, minds and might. It’s how we know how to worship HIM by not placing other gods before Him, not taking His name in vain and keeping His Sabbath holy. It’s HOW we love our neighbor as ourselves. It’s there to keep us from coveting, lying, cheating, murdering.

And when we sin, we can be assured that He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins.(1 John 1:9) THAT is a promise. All we need to do to grab a hold of this promise of forgiveness is to repent. Turn from that sin today, and follow after Yahweh’s heart.

What does it mean to walk in love? Can we really do it?

The Fruits Of The Spirit-LOVE

Something that I have been learning lately are the fruits of the Spirit.

No, it’s not been easy, and I’m not very patient with it. I get angry when one of my kids spills a drink on the couch, or when hubby spends more money on lunch than was originally budgeted. Oh, the frustration I feel when someone “doesn’t get it” about Torah, or who Yahshua was, or anything that I feel I’m on the “up and up” Biblically speaking.

Oh, wretched sinner that I still am. Obviously, the work on the cross didn’t finish it all, because there is still a LOT of work in me left to do. The only thing I have truly going for me at this point is my willingness to say that I don’t have it all together, and my willingness to keep trying. That automatically makes me 1/2 way to success, my desire to do the Father’s Will. HE wants us to succeed at this. He doesn’t set us up to fail, like a big ol’ meanie in the sky. The Father truly wants us to follow Him and He didn’t make the way difficult.

Now what I am commanding you today is not too difficult for you or beyond your reach. It is not up in heaven, so that you have to ask, “Who will ascend into heaven to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it?” Nor is it beyond the sea, so that you have to ask, “Who will cross the sea to get it and proclaim it to us so we may obey it?” No, the word is very near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart so you may obey it. See, I set before you today life and prosperity, death and destruction. For I command you today to love the LORD your God, to walk in obedience to him, and to keep his commands, decrees and laws; then you will live and increase, and the LORD your God will bless you in the land you are entering to possess. (Deut 30:11-16 NIV emphasis mine)

Following His commandments are not hard. At least, they shouldn’t be. Sinful pride seems to keep getting in the way for me. The Torah isn’t far off, it’s in our mouth and in our heart when we choose to follow the Father’s ways. Incidentally, that’s how our Messiah walked, talked and lived while on the earth. He walked Torah perfectly as an example to us that WE could do it, too.

But, that PRIDE.

Pride is the thing which causes me to fail each and every time. It puffs me up, makes me believe I can do it all on my own. That I don’t need help with anything. When I am full of pride, I find myself arguing with people, losing patience with my children, fighting with my husband, and even eating an entire bowl of ice cream as I try to “drown my sorrows”. The fruits of the Spirit are not reflected in these things.

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith,
Meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. (Gal 5:22-23 KJV)

So, how to I show love first of all? Yahshua Himself said that the two greatest commandments were to Love Yahweh with all our hearts, minds, and soul and to love our neighbor as ourselves.

Jesus said unto him, Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. This is the first and great commandment. And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. (Matt 22:37-39 KJV)

Loving Yahweh with all our hearts means that we guard His laws, His right rulings (Deut 11:1), obey His voice and cling to Him (Deut 30:20). We strive to follow Torah, to keep it the best we can. When we fail, we TRUST that our Messiah’s blood will cover our sin so that we can start over again. We don’t give up. That part is easy. Our Father is perfect, He doesn’t make mistakes, spill milk, toss a red sock in with white laundry or bleach our dark colors. He doesn’t load the dishwasher wrong, forget to take out the garbage or forget to feed the dog.

Loving our neighbor as ourselves? Ummm…that is the difficult part. It’s hard to love a neighbor that allows their dog to roam free, killing your chickens. The neighbor that dumps all their leaves in a pile in your yard? The neighbor that burns their leaves as you are trying to hang out laundry to dry? What about the person who cuts you off in traffic? Or takes the parking space you wanted? What about the person who is taking forever in the checkout line when you are in a hurry? How hard is it to remember to love when your white laundry comes out pink, or your black laundry comes out spotted? Or when you are cleaning up spilled milk-AGAIN?

That’s where I call out to the Father. There are times I can’t love someone on my own power. BUT, with the Father’s Spirit leading me I can forgive the dog’s owner, understand that the neighbor was trying to help our garden with his leaf pile, and even offer to take the other leaves off our neighbor’s hands so they don’t have to burn them. With the Spirit, I can breathe and remember that a parking space is just a parking space. There ARE others in the parking lot. I can remember that nothing is that important that I need to be in that big of a hurry in traffic, or at the store. (yes, emergencies are different)Perhaps in the interest of peace for myself, I leave an extra 15 minutes in my schedule to account for that.

With the Father’s Spirit, I can remember that clothing is just STUFF that will pass away. Harsh words can wound a soul, crush a spirit, break a heart. I take a breath and remember that my family was trying to help.

And, that, my friends…is walking in LOVE. Am I perfect at it? NOPE. Not even close. That’s where keeping close to the Father in prayer and reading comes into play. Renewing your mind and all. (Romans 12:2)

Did Jesus come to establish a NEW covenant? Or did He just reiterate the covenant given to Abraham?

Did Jesus Really Establish A New Covenant?

When I was in the mainstream churches, I was taught that Israel broke the covenant with the Father, Yahweh. Because of their breaking this covenant, Yahweh had to send His Son, Yahshua (Jesus) to die on the cross so there could be a new covenant.

Of course, with the new covenant, there were new rules, new commandments and even new holidays. The old was done away with, we didn’t have to follow that old archaic law anymore. The Jewish holidays weren’t for followers of Jesus.

But, is that true? I’ll give you a real life example to ponder on.

My husband and I have 3 wonderful children. We love them without fail, they don’t need to earn it, they have our love. Our natural born children did nothing, and can do nothing to earn our love. They did nothing to “earn” their place in our family.

We DO have rules in our house. Rules such as taking out the trash, doing the dishes, obeying curfew. Our love is not contingent on them obeying, but when they obey those rules they get blessings. When they were younger, it was in the form of allowances. As they have gotten older, the blessings were a bit different, such as later curfews, the ability to take Mom’s car when they went out, and so forth. Makes sense, right?

When they disobeyed the rules, or didn’t follow through, there was punishments. Such as being grounded, not being allowed to visit with friends and so forth. Still with me?

A few years ago, we adopted my niece. She saw that my kids had a stable life, one that she desired to be a part of. She liked the idea of being allowed to do things, and getting allowances or other benefits that went with it. That led to the decision of her wanting to live in our house and be part of our family. We became ONE family.

The clincher here? We didn’t set up different rules for her. She had to follow the rules that were already established. The rules that our natural born children were already following. It was GRACE that brought her into our house, but OBEDIENCE that kept her flowing in the blessings. Remember, allowances, borrowing the family car, getting to go out with friends? All blessings to them. And all easily obtained by following the rules.

What do you think would have happened if we had given my niece different rules?

“Oh, you’re new to this, and since our daughter didn’t obey the rules, well, you don’t have to either. Just love your neighbor. Forget all this curfew stuff, helping out around the house, and other rules. Those just don’t apply to you anymore”

We would have been seen as horrible, unfair, and even psychotic. Why would we allow someone to come into our house, share in the blessings, but have a different set of rules placed on them? Why would it be okay for my niece to eat in her bedroom, but not my daughter? How does this drive my daughter to want to continue to try and follow my rules, and my niece to see me as a loving, fair parent? In short, it doesn’t. It can’t.

The rules are still there, they never went away. The rules are the rules in our house, regardless if my children obey them or not. For example, curfew during the school year is 11 PM. If my daughter is late, and comes in at 11:05, I don’t say that the curfew is done away with. It’s still the rule. She can repent and follow that rule the next time because I love her. I will give her grace to try again. Maybe after a punishment of being grounded, but she WILL get a second chance.

As for my niece, just because my daughter was late and broke our rules doesn’t give her the license to break them too. If she wants to live in our house, she has to follow our rules. If she chooses to not follow our rules, then she is free to leave.

Thus, I struggle with Christians today in mainstream churches who believe the law is done away with. “We don’t need to follow that anymore, Christ did away with it” is what I hear over and over. What they are in essence saying is that they are like my niece, wanting to live in the Father’s house with all His blessings, but they get their own set of rules. They don’t have to follow the rules that the natural born children already have in place, simply because the natural born children broke them.

As a matter of fact, the covenant that Yahweh gave to Abraham is still in effect. I believe that it existed in the beginning, as John 1:1 states.

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

Is it too far fetched to think that ADAM was given the Torah by Yahweh Himself, in the spoken word? We know that Adam had many children, and I am sure they were all taught about Yahweh and His ways directly from Adam. Otherwise, how would Cain and Able have known HOW to sacrifice to Yahweh? Or, even what to sacrifice?

I believe the Torah was given in spoken form, to be passed down generation to generation. It’s not out of reality to understand Noah knew what was “clean and unclean” to sacrifice. (Genesis 7:2) Back then, they were vegetarians. So, when they were given all animals to eat, that didn’t include pig, or shellfish. They already KNEW what was clean and unclean.

Like a game of “telephone”, where you pass a message down to another person and they have to rely on what YOU heard, the Torah was given in spoken messages. However, like all humans who have hearts bent on evil from birth (Genesis 6:5), the Torah was not followed. Human-kind once again became corrupt and broke the rules.

Just like when my daughter was late for her curfew. She was an hour late one night, and was grounded for a week.

Israel went into captivity to Egypt. I believe that they were tested by Yahweh as a result of disobedience. When Moses led them out of Egypt, at Sinai they were given the Torah once again. BUT, this time it was written in stone. No more “but I didn’t know, my father never taught me that” excuses. They had it in writing for all to follow for ALL their generations.

One law shall be to him that is homeborn, and unto the stranger that sojourneth among you. Exodus 12:49

Then, when Israel continued to disobey (do we EVER learn!), Yahshua came to us. He was the perfect example of HOW to walk out the Torah. He showed us, in both word and deed, how to daily follow the Father’s ways. He didn’t speak His own words, but that of the Father.

For I have not spoken of myself; but the Father which sent me, he gave me a commandment, what I should say, and what I should speak. (John 12:49)

The “new” covenant that so many Christians are excited about is NOT that we can “eat all things” or follow after pagan holidays (christmas, easter etc.) BUT that the Torah will be written on our HEARTS.

“This is the covenant I will make with them after that time, says the Lord. I will put my laws in their hearts, and I will write them on their minds.” (Hebrews 10:16)

What it all boils down to is this. When we call on our Savior Yahshua, it’s because we have sinned. We have transgressed against the law, the Torah (1 John 3:4) and we need Him to show us the way, and to cover us with his blood so we can be forgiven.

Like my niece, we want to be in the Father’s house. We want to be saved. BUT, we need to obey. We need to follow the rules. THAT is how we show that we love Him.

Whoever has My commandments and keeps them is the one who loves Me. The one who loves Me will be loved by My Father, and I will love him and reveal Myself to him.” (John 14:21)

Are you walking in the truth today? Follow the Messiah’s example, and walk out the Torah.